.Let's start at the very beginning.

A very good place to start.

This is the first official 'baby' post and what better place to start then at the very beginning. 

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I was born in November of 1986...just kidding, not that beginning. Let's start with Adam and I in our dating years. We found out quickly talking was something we both enjoyed doing--especially that boy of mine! The two of us discovered early on we shared a desire to become parents and to raise our children in a Christian home.  

Adam wanted four kids.

I simply wanted to be a mommy with no specific number in mind.

We both hoped (and still do) for twins.

We were married June 20, 2009 and introduced our first baby to friends and family a few months later. I should probably explain our first baby happened to be a furry, four legged little pup we named Colden. Our dog became (and still is) the source of much happiness for Adam and I and has continued to bring us together as a couple. It may sound silly, but having a dog really brought out what kind of parents we will become some day. There has been an array of emotions 'raising' and training our dog--joy, frustration, stress, comfort, anger, excitement, annoyance and most important, love. It has been a good little test run how Adam and I react under certain circumstances and has revealed our different strengths and weaknesses.

After our first year of marriage we discussed when to start trying for babies and thankfully, we were on the same page...not yet! We wanted to wait until our second anniversary to bring up the topic again. Welp, a lot happened at that time, one big thing in particular--we bought a house! This prolonged our decision to start a family but gave us extra confidence knowing we would raise our little babe in a safe and beautiful neighborhood.

Moving on to 2.5 years of marriage. It was time! We both were on board with the idea of actually having a baby but then got a bit scared (again) and decided to wait longer. Adam was then offered to go on an amazing business trip to Malaysia in which spouses were also invited. An opportunity like this would never happen again so with my husband's persuasion, we decided to travel around the world together. As a warm up for our big trip, Adam planned a surprise 'honeymoon' for the two of us to Iceland. Our experiences in these two countries were phenomenal and strengthened our marriage..and romance ;)

At the beginning of our third year we knew in our hearts it was time. God revealed an excitement and a desire to experience a new love, a love for a child...our child. We began 'trying' (aka having amazing non-protected sex) and after 5 months, it happened! I have to share the very first time we attempted to get pregnant...it was our first time ever not using anything and afterwards I broke down. I'm talking the big, loud, ugly cry. 

I freaked out.

I could not believe what just happened.

I was scared it would 'work' and I would become pregnant.

Friends, I was a mess..crying and laughing all at the same time. I was excited but nervous. I had doubt. I had worries. This all happened while still laying with Adam as he just looked at me like, "I thought this is what you wanted me to do.."

We laugh about it now. God showed me grace and prepared my heart and mind once again at the idea of becoming pregnant and becoming a mommy to our little babe. After the first few months of getting a false pregnancy test, Adam and I didn't know what to expect. Maybe this was going to be harder than we thought...maybe God had a different plan for us.

God is good and gave us both a peace about pregnancy and distracted us from 'trying and getting' pregnant to simply enjoying each other at times of intimacy. Before we knew it, Adam and I were falling more in love and our romantic relationship became new and well, FUN! And just like that--I got a positive test on November 1st.

We were expecting our first little babe!

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This is truly a miracle and an absolute answer to prayer. You see, Adam and I have been praying for this baby since the beginning of our marriage. We have been seeking after God's will for our lives and for our baby. We have been trusting Him and allowing Him to guide us on this journey called life. We prayed consistently through the years God would begin molding our hearts to become the kind of parents our baby will need some day. 

Adam and I have fears and insecurities about raising a child.

We know what makes us feel uncomfortable.

This is why we have and will always pray.

The Lord provides strength, determination, understanding, mercy, confidence, and love--all of which are needed in my life and in Adam's life. We have discussed our baby and the fear of the unknown. What challenges will we face together? Will our baby be born with special needs?-- a disease?-- an illness? The truth is, only our Heavenly Father knows and only He will provide. Provide for me as a mother, provide for Adam as a father, and will provide for our child.

The other truth is our baby will be loved and loved greatly..it already is :) 

No matter what happens in life, Adam and I have faith in the Lord and in the creation of our baby. When I think about our baby's life, his or her heart beating and little body forming, I cannot help but find comfort in the beauty and truth of these verses..

Psalm 139: 13-18,

"For you created my inmost being; you knit me together in my mother's womb. I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made; your works are wonderful, I know that full well. My frame was not hidden from you when I was made in the secret place, when I was woven together in the depths of the earth. Your eyes saw my unformed body; all the days ordained for me were written in your book before one of them came to be. How precious to me are your thoughts, God! How vast is the sum of them! Were I to count them, they would outnumber the grains of sand-when I awake, I am still with you."

Here is our baby at 10 weeks!

Thank you for joining us on this new chapter in our lives. Adam and I are growing daily in anticipation for our baby's arrival. The due date is set for July 7th--bring on Summer!